Wednesday, March 15, 2006

...continued

Well. My prediction was right, Tuesday pretty much sucked. Wait, was that just yesterday??? Wow. If you haven't heard or guessed, I got laid off from my job at which I have been slaving my ass off for some time now. Along with some good friends. But oddly, I'm not...well...freaking out. I'm not saying it didn't SUCK, or that I wasn't filled with mixed emotions yesterday. But oddly, when I woke up this morning (in time to actually make it to work by 9, OH THE IRONY) imagine my surprise when I felt not pain, but relief. Because, YAY, I didn't have to go to WORK! Who wouldn't rather stay in their PJs all day?

The thing is, this happened to me more than 4 years ago, but it felt so much worse that time. I was younger, and at the time losing my job seemed like not only the greatest professional insult ever, but I thought I was going to lose everything without that bi-weekly paycheck. It wasn't easy, but I made it through almost a year like that, working contract jobs, and never lost my house -- my mind, but not my house. The big difference now, I suppose, is that I KNOW there are things worse than this. And I still have freelance work. And I'm a little better off financially now than last time -- getting laid off makes you paranoid about money for LIFE, people.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do, where I'm going to go, who I'm going to see, etc etc. I just know that my biggest regret about my last bout with unemployment was that I had 10 months off and didn't. really. do. anything. I didn't go anywhere or enjoy the time off at all. I vow not to do the same thing this time, because life is too damn short and unpredictable. Perhaps the universe just said "get off your ass and LIVE a little, girlfriend" -- so that's exactly what I intend to do. You Only Live Once. Do Not Waste Opportunities. It's Only Money. It's Only Stuff. People Are More Important Than Things. blahblahblah. but it's all true.

Now, we'll just see how i'm feeling this time tomorrow... heh.

6 comments:

Hope said...

You have a great attitude and outlook on the situation. I'm sure there are going to be ups and downs but you've been through it before and you came out okay.

Enjoy the time you do have off, I'm so jealous of you being in pj's all day!

Alison said...

So sorry about your job, Lisa! Good luck finding something else, and do try to enjoy the time off... My husband was just out of work for one full year, & we wasted it ALL. We never planned anything fun because we kept thinking he'd have an interview or job any day, and didn't even manage to get our house organized or decluttered, so now I'm stuck sorting through the clutter in a different state!

Oh, BTW, I just saw your post about meat & have to confess I don't know how to cook, either, and here I'm supposed to be feeding kids! We eat out way too much (even did during unemployment, hence my major debt now), & I had Chef Boyardee for dinner last night. But I also second the recommendation for the George Foreman grill! I need to get mine out.

sarah said...

You don't need anyone to tell you this, but I will anyway. You are SUCH a strong person and I have no doubt that you will get a kickass job when you are ready. Until then, you'll just have to come to CA and hang out with me for a few days.

Nicole said...

the mountains are calling you, Sistah...don't fight it!

Crazy MomCat said...

OK, I'd accept the mountains calling you ONLY IF I could visit you...BUT, you are not allow to run away to Europe. I just will NOT have that! (grin)

You sound in a good place with this. That's awesome. And your live life and stop the worrying kind of fits my latest post too. Ahh...great minds, great minds...

Lisabell said...

Thank you everyone, for your well wishes. I needed to hear all this. I'm glad I wrote this entry when I did, because I'm starting to kind of freak out now :) So it's good to once again get perspective...just a few days ago I was actually kind of EXCITED. Wow. ;)